Crab Feed

Getting super crabby today. A woman ordered a Caramel Macchiato with extra caramel this morning at Starbucks and I wanted to hit her in the back of the head to try and make our civilization a better place. She should've just asked for a banana and scoop of ice cream in it and really gone for it this morning. Speaking of that, chicken fries at Burger King brilliant or crazy? The meat shake a la Ugly Duckling is so close. Taste the secret, man.

Also, new gripe. The spelling of vaccuum totally bugs me. It's like the multiple allowable spellings of Cancelled (Canceled). We should pass something and choose one. I like the double "L" myself.

What is the real problem going on with me is what I need to figure out. Of course, it bothers me that I have a wife that doesn't love me anymore and is dating someone else. I don't know much, but that almost makes it worse. How can she be normal and happy when my life feels like a Where's Waldo cartoon, just meaningless and confusing...and dumb and played out. However, just like the last election, you can be pissed, but if you are pissed it is an uphill battle and useless. You can just accept or wallow and usually those waver.

DRINKING. Yes, I do it again, occasionally. It's an experiment. I am starting another phase to see if I quit again if I will feel better. I didn't feel better before when I had quit for 7 weeks so the two things could be unrelated. On the fence about AA again, though.

Apartment is coming along. Need some bookshelves and and need to put all the DVDs away, but I can cook things, work at my computer and have a good couch to sit on. Need to finish the living room, have a housewarming party with my three friends and my mom and dad. Then, I can start working on the bedroom. The toilet is crooked I think. I haven't set a level on it yet, but it is starting to bother me a little bit.

SMOKING. Hate that I smoke, but I think it is helping me when I feel overwhelmed lately. All mental, of course. I am so mental lately. I am going to try and chart the number of cigarettes that I smoke a day in a spreadsheet. I'll put the chart on my fridge. Also, want to quit smoking in my car and also quit smoking at half time during soccer games. Missed 4 goals last Sunday. That is sad. Don't know if that is related to smoking. New experiment.

When will this therapy start working. I should probably just take the meds and forget any of this is happening. Speaking of meds, I am off of Tylenol PM to sleep. Finally, I get a point in this crappy game. At least it won't be a clean sheet.

Here are some cool things:
The Rasterbator
Dynamo from Trader Joe's mixed with Pelligrino
Sondra Lerche-Norway's Donovan
The Decemberists-Brilliant songwriting and all their gear got stolen earlier this year so support them by buying shirts and crap
Daryl Hall has Lyme Disease-You would think this would be John Oates chance to throw the game winning touchdown, but instead the men who brought you H2O would rather reschedule the end of the game. You could tell John Oates had thrown in the towel when he shaved off his moustache.