Time Takes Time Takes Time

Did a wedding last weekend that was pretty fresh to the divorce. So fresh that there was a seat for my wife next to me that we rapidly filled at our table with a friend who was sitting at a less cool table. The drinking experiment was very successful as I kept my composure and was relatively charming for the majority of the night. Ended up getting back to my car at 7:00 AM the next morning and back home at 8:00 AM. I managed to sleep until noon and then test our database at work as we did some maintenance on it over the weekend. Gamer.

The only thing was Monday and Tuesday were rough on me. I'm hoping it was just exhaustion or emotional fallout from the wedding as it was mutual friends and it was a wedding. Hung in there, though and put up a good fight. No drinking because I was sad or lonely or anything like that. Just read, played guitar and relaxed. At this point, I am comfortable with the present and future, but still hurt about what's behind me and what WE lost. I may be delusional and way off, but I thought that we had something that was pretty good. The sad part is that no one can make me feel better at this point, not even her. A time machine would be the only thing that could help either move me forward or move me back to before she wrecked everything or perhaps in her eyes fixed everything. I'm not blind to there being two sides to every story, but in my eyes we both lost out and nobody really won. I don't think I'm that awesome and in fact, probably 1 in 150 not million, but we were pretty good friends aside from being husband and wife. Regardless, making it through today will feel like an accomplishment. Five hours to go.

Last thing, after bouncing it off family and friends there is absolutely no way, no matter if I am not drinking or anything, that I can attend my friend's wedding who is marrying my ex-wife's sister. No way. An out of country blackout with no cell phone would be a better alternative for everyone. I'll see if anything changes in the next month, though. Will probably just stop by with a toaster and a handshake prior to the wedding and say congratulations.

How boring. Today is all about me. Haven't been inspired lately. Perhaps if I have a few this weekend I will post and be funny.

Today's Pro Tips:
Benefit of the Doubt means assume the worst.

When chipping onto the green try putting your feet together and your hands in front of the ball on your downswing-keep your head down.

Get out of REITs before the real estate bubble bursts.

Two wrongs don't make a right, but three make a left in San Francisco.