Dry Month

So, Thursday will be my month anniversary of not drinking. It really isn't that bad. Feeling smarter and more creative, but sometimes my mind freaks me out a little bit. Everything is so vivid including the bad stuff, but the bad stuff is being managed. You accept it and you move forward. I missed the last AA meeting, but it was totally worth missing it. Went to go see Layer Cake instead. Totally worth it. Daniel Craig looks just like Steve McQueen in Bullit. Heard he might be the next James Bond, too.

Eating a little bit, too. The thing about not drinking anymore is that you go out to dinner a lot. You also go out to coffee a lot. It puts kind of a damper on your social life, but random hookups are pretty unfulfilling the day after, can occasionally be messy, and take a toll on you emotionally if you are not careful. The key right now is to be healthy both emotionally and physically.

Haven't talked to the (ex-)wife at all. She was supposed to clean up the apartment to try and get our deposit back, but just ended up spilling rust water all over the carpet, so we will probably actually owe money now. Good job. Also, dealing with the most difficult part of the divorce, the AT&T (Cingular?) wireless bill. Sucks. A pro tip would be to never get a joint calling plan with a girl unless you are sure she is the...scratch that. Never do it.

I move in to a new apartment 3 miles from work the first weekend of July and I have nothing except the bed, a pan, a pot and a cookie sheet that won't fit in the oven. So, I've got that going for me. I may just pick up a Ms. Pac Man cocktail edition for a dinner table.

Today's good news is brought to you by the City of Palo Alto Public Safety. I beat a ticket this morning and the officer was totally pissed. We wouldn't look at each other and I had to really struggle to not laugh out loud at him when I beat it.

This blog is getting more narcissistic by the second. Therapist says to work on that, though. I need to not try and help people to my own detriment. It's a new thing that has culminated into buying expensive clothes and things for myself.

Last thing. I broke up with the in-laws last week and it was horrible. They are awesome and I really love them to death and would do anything for them normally. Just sucks that things are far from what used to be normal, so it is a better idea to just leave it alone for a while. I really wish I didn't have to, though.

So, things to work on:
Eat Lunch
Embrace Loneliness and learn to love it
Don't Drink
Sleep More
Smoke Less
Do not become co-dependent on anyone
Kill Time...to what event I don't know.